Well, when the sun comes out and the rain goes away. There are always clouds in the distance. I love my kids but I really dont want to live with them. I love my peace and I just dont get it. But, what can you do. My sister and brother are doing what they always do try and blame me for thier crap. but that is my fault I let them in and that wont happen again. But, I do love my house and I am lucky to have a job. I think I am just run down and it gets hard struggling. You know I wouldnt know what to do if I got a hug. It would be nice to have someone to lean on and know that they have your back. Oh well, I dont know why I thought of that never have had it so it shouldnt bother me know. It just came over me today. I would love to have a weekend somewhere were I wouldnt have to think just be. Oh well two more days and I will be off and that is good but then everyone will be here so dont know how good that is. Am tired think I will go to bed maybe will fill better tomorrow