Long day still dont feel good cant shake this illness. Furnace went out today. No i did not call the landlord for many reasons. But until others in this house clean and do what I think they should we will do with out or they can find someone to fix it. It is all I can do to sit through 8 hours at work. There has to be something better if not then what am I doing. I think I am just tired of trying maybe you just need to know when to let go and give it up. I have held it together for to long. The joy has been sucked out of life. It is proabley better for someone else to carry on in my place so the place wont be wasted on someone who just cant look up any more. And the music rolls on